Holy ****. Do you realize how strong you are? Your strength is far superior than you may belive.

Your wife played mind games, and manipulated you into how she wanted you. Let me tell you this...it's your wife that is bat **** crazy. Her behavior most certainly made things worse for your mood and mental health.

I read the entire thing and just want to say that I to am so proud of where you have made it. Going through what you did can be somewhat traumatic due to the mind games and manipulation to fit her twisted reality....she surely needs help. But you made it out from her wicked spell and that is extremely important for your future mental health.

Congratulations for how far you have come. Keep that backbone and remember you are a human with feelings that deserves WAY more then she could have ever offered you.

Keep on truckin...