I like Thunder Bow's ideas. I might amplify on the specific type of "thinking." I can relate to a need to scream in your ear and some part of you feeling satisfied that you knocked yourself into the water. This could be a way of being hard on yourself or even feeling a need to punish yourself. According to my meditation teachers, almost everyone who comes to learn meditation discovers they are pretty harsh with themselves by habit.

Also it seems to show you are trying to bring something to your own attention that you are ignoring.