Hi all and thank you for your opinions. I know you are right. I had started to heal but that my xhusband should ask this came as a surprise and it ripped up the dreams I lost so suddenly back then. I have been thinking much and there are many negative memories that I have. Like he didnt nearly touch me down there, show no affection, didnt talk much and didnt share of himself. It was uncomforatable, but I thought it was because of his culture or way of being when we first met. I dont want to experience feeling that way again as affection and feeling wanted is a nessecity for being happy and fullfilled. He said he made mistake about this. ( just to say the first two days he was touching me, but then it stopped after marriage ). There is no way I would want to feel that way again and even he say it all will be different I am not so sure that he will be able to show affection and love. I dont think he has it in him, not only for me, but not for anyone. However I can be wrong.

I dont have support around me and I do need to continue work on my issues. I have a father and some friends. I am thinking about seeking support in some way from them. I am easily manipulated but I am getting a bit stronger and have a bit more power. Still I know I would be safe if I had support around me to confront my xhusband and speak to him and put him in place and tell him what I deserve. I think I do deserve a better way than what was happening down there and with the divorce.

Thank you all.