Hello and welcome to Psych Central swizzle22!!! It's nice to meet you. You have joined a community of warm and caring members who will want to offer you support and advice. Yours is welcome as well.

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Sorry for your struggles. There are many here who will be able to relate to what you're going through and offer you feed back. I'm happy to hear you've scheduled an appointment with a psychologist. This is the one sure way to get a definitive diagnosis and treatment plan. I'm bipolar and can relate to almost all of the things you've said here. I must seriously caution you against the use of alcohol and recreational drug as these only serve to increase the severity of manic and depressive episodes if this is in fact what you have. The effects of these chemicals can be devastating as well if you take them in combination with any psych medications you may be put on in the future. Be careful and be well.

I look forward to seeing you around!!!