it took me a long time... it started way back at age ~5 and i left home cos of it at 17yrs
im not sure of the age i was when i realized just what was happening
even when i had that thought this is wrong its abuse
i still thought that it was love
that i should be happy
sigh
i hate my life
i hate my father
i hate my mother
when will my pathetic life be over

i did know that when a local boy raped me that it was rape - i was 15