The gardening sounds great! I wish I had space to try to grow something outside. I think I might try to grow some ginger in a pot... supposedly it doesn't need full sun, which is good, because my house is pretty dark and depressing.

Your BF's mom... oh wow. Just... no. I remember your other thread about spending the holidays with them (and your BF volunteering you to cook!). That house in the middle of nowhere sounds like such a recipe for disaster... or the makings of a new reality TV show!

My mom hasn't visited yet, she's off traveling at the moment. She's planning to be here in mid-July. So, I've got some time . Why are you going to be seeing your mom every week? That seems like A LOT. Are you helping her out with something? Either way, I'm sorry... that sounds stressful

Doesn't that just figure that you'd get a great idea first thing in the morning, and that it would slip away! I hate when that happens! Have you tried just sitting or laying down and relaxing, and sort of poking at the edges of the idea to see if anything comes up? You know, thinking about the things you do remember - even if it's just "how might I live a more goal-oriented life? What would that look like?" Maybe your unconscious will help you out with this one?

re: People being annoying... it could be an introvert thing. Or a depression thing (not sure if you're depressed, I think irritability can go up with mild depression?) Or a high-IQ thing. Or a bad match thing. Is it really *all* people? Are there any people that you talk to in real life that don't annoy you?

Or maybe, people are just by their nature annoying. I'm thinking of my favorite people, and even they can be mildly annoying on rare occasions. Maybe people who are extroverts spend so much more time dealing with people that they don't notice the little annoyances? I don't know...

I managed to get myself out to a board-games meetup last night. It was fun, but a bit too much socializing, I think, because I'm still worn out. Really tired. Though, I did actually win a game! I've been ~3 times, and it was the first time I've won...so I may have jumped up a little tiny bit and cheered!