Yeah, I'm working on writing. I threw out the perfect draft a couple months ago because of course when I was manic everything was suddenly absolutely perfect and beautiful. Except maybe not so much now that I'm on earth again.

I honestly think he is depressed. But it's not like I can tell him that. My big concern is that my confronting him about this is going to carry a lot of weight. He's treated me longer than anyone in his entire career. So if I have this problem it's pretty likely others do too and unless he is hearing from a lot of people and not changing anything it is likely he's going to hear it from me and from me it carries more weight than someone who has only seen him for a few months. Plus he knows perfectly well that I don't confront people. Ever. We've been sort of working on that for a while now but keep getting interrupted by mania or influenza or his health issues or whatever. My doing this is a big, big thing for me. And nobody will know that as well as him.

So he's a professional and can deal with it but I know from my own life that it still hurts to get criticism (which I'm trying to avoid but this is in fact criticism) and the circumstances are going to make him know this is serious. I hope that means that he is then able to see that something is wrong but I'm not sure.

I guess I'll know tomorrow.