Ive recently become aware of mood swings ive been having since age 17 im 30 now...I had a major breakdown when my doctor put me on antdepressants I slept 8 hours in a week I lost hand eye coorddination racing thoughts hearing voices ive quit 3 jobs this year due to what I think rhypomanic break downs or manic I dont know how to tell the difference...I went to the hospital cause I wanted to hurt myself ive been fighting these thoughts for over a year and feel myself breaking down they didnt even let me see a phychiayrist ineed meds but they didnt give a damn and basically told me I was making up my symptoms im very upset because no one ever believes anything I ever say...I atill want to hurt myself but dont want to I dont know how ill make it thro to the end of the month without meds I need help please someone help..sos!!!!