The saying "Once bitten, twice shy" comes to mind.


You got involved and married to him once before, not knowing how ugly he can turn on you.


To do it again, knowingly, I'm sorry for my bluntness, but that doesn't seem smart at all.


You have two separate parts of you trying to make this decision.


The part that hurts, that's lonely, that yearns for love, and the part that's logical that sees how you haven't managed to heal from his previous hurts and wants to protect you from subjecting yourself to that again.


My advice?


Make a Pros and Cons list, and don't add things like his family likes you, as that is of no consequence. Unless of course he abandons you and you get stuck in a foreign country, then it will help that they like you. Ideally, you want to stick to the relationship itself, write down all the good and bad facts and stack them up against each other. That way you can see black on white which ranks higher...