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Originally Posted by cashart10
Anyone else just know people hate you, even when you know it is illogical?Tonight I feel hated, even though I am likely loved, by folks on this site. It doesn't end there; I constantly think my husband and my mom are angry with me. As a child, I would believe that my own family members didn't like me and I would suck up to them. I always believed that I would never be loved enough to spend my life with the same person. I think despite loads of affection, I have trouble accepting love. It has gotten better with age but I sometimes still crave affirmations and if I don't receive them, I take it as a dislike for me personally. I am such a whiny, illogical human being. I'm not sure I would like me if I were someone else. I'm so sorry guys, for posting too much, for saying stupid things, for being over all terrible at being supportive to our wonderful group. I truly appreciate you. And, I'm so sorry for being so insecure right now. I am a teary eyed, unstable mess.
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Hi sweetie,
I think we're all here to help each other mutually since we all go through this ups and downs and moments of despair [emoji4]
I have the same issue, my self esteem is ridiculously low. Since as a child I would also think my family members did not like me. I was under this impression specially with my mom, and I would feel so rejected sometimes even though it was completely not true.
And I still fear rejection but I have transferred it to other scenarios like work. I get very paranoid sometimes thinking this or that person from work does not like me or the quality of my job. And then I take it very personally and start disliking my colleague.
But honestly I have realized that is just bipolar being ridiculous (I have read this in one of the threads and simply love this statement).
I cannot take compliments AT ALL. Which is a controversy, I mean I wanna people to like me or my work and then when I'm praised I act all weird and dismiss the compliment. Pffff go wonder
Talking about mechanisms that help us cope or overcome this irrational feeling of rejection...I have found this website called "Do Yoga with me", and one of their most popular class is "Love yourself". The classes are all online and you don't need to pay for it.
It's actually quite soothing and it does not demand lots of flexibility or whatever. Very basic yoga poses and very relaxing. I actually cried during the first class, I was taken by this indescribable sensation of self love. It was not sadness but happiness and joy.
You can give it a try, I know you have a toddler running around the house and finding sometime just for yourself can be a bit of a challenge... But in any case, if you'd like to go for it, here's the link:
http://www.doyogawithme.com/content/love-yourself
Hope you feel better soon! And do not forget that is just bipolar being ridiculous [emoji8]
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