I feel much of what you described. Your not alone! Just so you know I love your posts. The relate a lot to me. Somehow, no matter your current problem they usually have a upbeat quality to them. I've always enjoyed reading them and continue to. I too feel like people hate me and I know it makes no since. Like with strangers on this sight, I get paranoid and then believe my feelings are an affirmation of there feelings. So I must be crap lol. Even as I write this my brain is nagging me to delete it all because I'm young, immature, and could never understand you. What bogus! My feeling just solidifies your not alone in this! But that's the problem like raspberrytorte said no positive affirmations. Try telling yourself your worthy of love and list what you like about yourself and then list not what you don't like but what you can improve on and how. Doing this draws me away from the negative and more to the solutions. Hope this helps.