Thanks sunrise.

Yes I'm a graphic designer (work in both print and Web). I'm sure there are jobs in my field, but I sure dread looking for one again. I don't even know where my old resume is to start updating it. I'd been at this job for 7 and a half years.

Okay this paragraph isn't therapy-related at all: I have to wonder about the people left behind at my job. I mean, I know it's not my problem, but with the entire publications department being eliminated I really don't know what they'll do. We put out lots of print material, I ran multiple websites as well as weekly email marketing. None of this stuff can be done by someone who doesn't work in design, and I'm not even sure how they'll outsource it without knowing what files to send out. I have to wonder what will happen to them as I loved all my old co-workers (the decision to eliminate my department came from the new CEO who was just hired in January). I guess that's their problem! I don't imagine morale will be very high there.

And now back to therapy.... I'm worrying that if I find a new job I won't be able to schedule therapy which I always went to over lunch. Harder to manage that sort of thing at a brand new job, but hopefully I can figure something out. I'm not even sure I'd take a job where I couldn't manage to see my therapist! I haven't heard back from him (I know he's out of town -- I can't believe my rotten luck today!), but maybe I'll get to see him on Monday. I hope he has an opening. I'm supposed to go to group on Monday night. I'd go back and tell them I was quitting, but I'd hate to say that before I'd even told T.

Actually I don't know really what will happen with group. Maybe he'll try to get me to stay on. I don't know what I'll do. I'm not up for fighting about it, but I'm also not up for trying to interact with a group (say what I feel, etc.). I'm not up for anything.

Sidony