dear t: I'm feeling on the inside like the stupid little girl that my parents always made me believe that I was back then and I hate this feeling. But it's not true and I know it's not true. I'm just letting the negative inner voices get the better of me. I'm talking back to them like we have worked on. They're bugging me about you, too, saying **** like I can't handle life w/out you. This is not true either. They need to shut the hell up and go away. Pronto.