Lothlorien, I'm glad you're here too. It sounds like you are on the right track. Remember that in order to eliminate a problem behavior, you have to replace it with something better. It's great that you are reducing it. When you don't want to quit, that means that the behavior is still serving some purpose for you. If you can understand what that purpose is, and find a more constructive way to accomplish it, then that might help. It takes a while too. It's quite a jump to try to live outside of the dark box (I think of a swamp and for the longest time I knew I wasn't still in the middle of the swamp, but I kind-of poked my way around the edges, not caring if I got sucked back in. Sometimes I do get sucked in still, and I might not even notice it until I find my way out and go "whoa, what was that all about?"

Just keep trying, and we'll be happy to toss you a rope when you need one.

Rap