My struggle now is being conflicted to say or go again. We went out last night and agreed we just need to enjoy each other and had a great time (fact). She gave me a small kiss on the lips and a really long hug, and said "just give me time"/. I did tell her that I didnt want to focus on us and focus on my, and that I did write her an email explaining the clarity I had, which outlined my behavior was consistant with the characteristics on BDP. She knows and understands. She and her children all have issues, and meds, etc, but are very awesome people.

I want to have healthy boundaries up, and as much as I try it still bothers me that she is on Match.com. That makes me want to push away again, but I want to prove I can handle myself and not follow the pattern that has gotten in this place. Do I stay or go, and can I focus on me with her in the picture.