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Old May 05, 2015, 03:10 PM
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Originally Posted by Mr. Radio View Post
Perhaps it's just me and I'm in a state of illusion that I've never been able to come out of. Maybe my ego is suppose to of died and is hanging on by any means necessary by not letting me live down what I think I should be or where I think I should be at.

They say a new self is born after a psychotic episode, that may be true and all, but my question is, does that new you ever get back to a normal you? Like do you feel 100% of things you were able to do in the past or is there a disability brought on from the psychotic episode. Tell me from your experience. I'm in another self debate.
It's been just over 3 years since my major psychosis began. It lasted more than a year. I have never recovered, but then I have experienced 2 pregnancies within that time. Based on this, I would say no, I will never recover.

That said, I was extremely unstable as a teen and had a much milder psychotic episode at 15. For upwards of 8 years I maintained stability (for the most part). It never even occurred to me during this time that the diagnosis of bipolar given to me as a teen could be correct. So, maybe sometimes there is full recovery and sometimes not? Maybe it depends on the severity? But, as for me, I feel certain I will not recover again.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now

Tori Amos ~ Crucify

Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder