In recent days, I've found at least three things that i don't know how to feel about, at least not completely:

1. The death of the wrestler, "Macho Man" Randy Savage, which i recently found out about, 4 years later. I enjoyed his work as a voice actor and was a bit surprised and embarrassed about going for as long as i did without knowing that he was gone.

2. The knowledge of Nellie Bly's existence: now to a degree, this really shouldn't have been that big a deal for me, but after making the connection to her and a fictional character from a movie that i enjoyed, I was a little thrown through a loop.

and, finally, the big one--

3. My Paternal Grandfather's medical condition; I'm ashamed to say that i just found out about this one today and am worried (even though i'm told that he won't make it). I already went through the worry of losing a grandfather last year, when my maternal grandfather became ill and was hospitalized, he pulled through though. But the issue here is that i never really knew my paternal grandfather (I'm probably the only one among my siblings who didn't), losing him without ever knowing much about him shames me, right alongside not knowing much about the rest of my father's side of the family or all of my mother's. Plus, my dad losing his father right before Father's day will make celebrating that holiday hard. I spoke with my mother about this and she said that, because i didn't remember my paternal grandfather, i couldn't really see it as a loss for myself. However, my concern should be for my father and his loss, which i can understand. Still though, the thought of losing a grandfather i never got to know shames me.