Oh its ok. It just hit me earlier and made me think of all the crap Ive been through. So many years of pain and Im still working to get it under control. Back then I was diagnosed with major depression and such. I wonder if things could have been better is they caught the bipolar stuff earlier.

That day really was so traumatizing though. All because I self-harmed at school and my friend told a teacher. That's when they told a counselor who called my school therapist who called an ambulance. Because she broke protocol they called the school resource officer, because I had a razor they called the state police, and the school superintendant showed up because of it all too. it was horrible. I remember curling my knees up to my head and just hiding in a corner until my sister came to pick me up. I was to be evaluated and wasn't allowed back in school until I was cleared.

I wasn't too scared in the ER after all that. Then I was my first 72 hr hold. What a crappy homecoming that was!