Rapunzel,
I completely agree that hospitalization would be awful for me right now. It would ruin a lot of things for me, with school and friends and family, and probably just make most of my problems worse. So that's why I'm actively avoiding the counseling center at the moment. I do want to go through therapy though, I've got a lot that I need to work through. I just need to do it when I can afford it, and get someone who will really listen to me. I've had awful therapy experiences in the past that I'm still recovering from, and that I'll probably need therapy to get over . I'm coping with my problems, it's just not normal coping.

How does the e-mail therapy work? I've never heard of that before. Is it helping?

And yes, my friend is amzing when it comes to stuff like that. I know that a lot of people rely on him, and thats why I feel so bad when I dump on him, cause I'm usually the one he goes to when something goes wrong with him. That's how most of my relationships have worked out, and it's strange for me to go to someone else. But I guess that's how friendships are supposed to work, so I'll work on that.