Thank you! And yes, it is time to give it up. But (there's always a but), lately it has been an addiction, an unreasonable addiction. For instance, I just found THE pearl ring for me. It costs $130. I am afraid if I don't buy it now I won't get it. I have already received my mother's day/birthday present from my husband (we agreed that since I have spent so much on myself these would be my gifts) which means that the next holiday for buying is Christmas. I have to have THIS ring and I'm worried they won't still have it in December. I've thought about asking my husband to buy it and hold it until Christmas but he will probably kill me just for asking. He is so over it. How ridiculous do I sound? Because I know I am being ridiculous and sooooooo selfish!!! I don't usually spend money on myself at all, just on my kiddos. I have no idea what in the world has gotten into me.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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