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Originally Posted by UCMATH
This is really unhealthy spending. You need to delete your information from all of your online accounts and hand all of your cards over to your husband. This may be too blunt, but you're an adult who is aware that what you're doing is partially the result of a manic or mixed episode. I know it's difficult, but the responsible thing is to make sure you don't have access to any resources that will allow you to make these purchases while you're in an episode. You're perfectly capable of doing that, even while you're manic.
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Thank you UCMATH!
I feel so guilty and so sad about it (well, part of the time I do, like right now, and part of the time I am just needy and greedy). You are right and you aren't the first to suggest it. I should have done it weeks ago. I don't know why my husband didn't demand I hand them over...and now my mom is on my case about getting a good deterrent in place. She suggested I hand over my credit card and call someone every time I want to spend. The thing is I can't tell him or my mom about one of my credit cards; they (especially my husband) will be furious, truly furious. I can't handle that right now. I will shut down. Why CAN'T I be a grown up and just stop the spending? Today I did good. I spent money but only on what I needed. I had to run out for a second after I salivated over the stupid ring and I came home with a little more reason (although if I could, I would buy it in a flat second). And, now I am a guilty, blubbering idiot. I am going to hand over my regular credit card; I am going to have my husband remove paypal from Ebay, and I am going to think of a creative way to keep myself from spending on the store card that he is unaware of. I really will. I'll do it tomorrow.
