I am just going to use this thread as verbal diarrhea and probably blow it up for a few minutes. Sorry for the graphic imagery. I have so much to say and no one to say it to. At the same time, I have no idea what to say. How about those 49'ers or, how about ISIS? You tell me, light or heavy, and I'll go about it. On one hand, I'm generally not vocal about my beliefs (unless I am manic and then I preach the Gospel on the streets) of any kind because I find it separates people to discuss them in great detail. There are subjects and people that are exceptions to this. On the other hand, I have no beliefs. I am so ambiguous and indecisive in my every day life that the beliefs that I once so firmly held, that I once lived my life for are now entirely jaded. I don't resemble the person I was 3 years ago. Really, I don't. Can you tell I need to talk. WHEW!!! I need to talk. I need to f*****g scream! I can't stop crying. And will I sleep tonight? Well that is the gosh darn (gosh darn, snort) question. How are YOU doing tonight? Tell me about you for a while. How the hell was your day? What the hell do you do for a living? When the hell were you diagnosed bipolar? How the hell do you live, especially with any enjoyment? How the hell do you get by without ****ing complaining? This is all in vain.