you know what i'd do......i'd first just try to make friends with some gay guys........no agenda. let them know that. and i'd get a set of those barbells, inexpensive, and instead of playing video games, i'd play "get fit".....

if there is a church that is gay friendly, go to services or sunday school........(more open-mindedness)......and do you really, really want to go out with someone who has a prejudice that it seems half the people in this world have?

work on getting fit and you'll be surprised how attitude will change. you'll feel more positive and that attracts people..always.

my best gay friend told me to tell you this.........he was overweight a few years ago........

i'm sorry that you're hurting but take that hurt and turn it into action..........keep me updated......xoxoxo pat