Heh, yeah, I know I am. :\ It's been over a year and I'm still going through phases of "nah, maybe it was just temporary and they misdiagnosed and I don't really need my medication" and so on and so forth. I'm mostly good with it (case in point: I'm compliant with a medication regimen now, haha) but there're still times when I'm like "but maybe not..."

I'm still not fully 'there' with regards to acknowledging what's been happening is abuse. I was in therapy with an LMHC for about 10 months last year. I also did a men's trauma group every week in the evening with her at the helm for about 6 months. It was in the group that the light bulb first started going off in my head. I'm definitely getting back into therapy/counseling/whatever you want to call it.

Bright point: I got offered a nice job today and it comes with health benefits so I'll be able to get back into the swing of things even sooner than expected. *breathes easier*