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Originally Posted by Aquagirl7
Wow, you basically summed up everything I am experiencing. I don;t know what the issue is, it does seem like an addiction because I feel highs and lows/withdraws when I don't see the person, or if my "standing" is not particularly good with them. For example, if I ask the person to hang out one day and they don't reply, I automatically think they're mad, don't like me anymore, and will never want to see me again. Every day is a roller-coaster. You spoke of a longing for a motherly-figure-- I have a strong desire for care, comfort and motherly love and I am getting attached (not sexually) to teachers, doctors, my psychologist- those who provide me with attention and show an understanding of my problems. I just wish I were able to control my thoughts, as I litterally think about the person of my infatuation alllllll theeeee timeeeeee.Is this some kind of disorder? OCD or borderline personality disorder?
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Yeah, I'm the exact same. It's always someone above me, like a teacher, boss, that kind of thing. Someone with authority over me. For me, unlike you, even though I want that care and comfort, it always becomes sexual. There has to be an attraction there in the first place for me to become obsessed with them. Right now I think my person of obsession hates me, because she doesn't seem the way she used to. I don't know, maybe something will happen to make my view change of her in the near future.
Also, I made this post somewhere else, and someone did mention Borderline Personality Disorder, apparently their sister has the same symptoms as me, and is diagnosed with it