Thank you so so much BB, that was very helpful

I am starting to single myself out from others because I think i'm too weird..
When do you think I should have "the talk" with them? I ask that because I don't want to scare them away before things start, and maybe they would be able to handle it if they had a good background from me to know that I wont go psycho and ruin their life?

I know a person that I was building on having as a possible mentor (our friendship was headed in that direction), is now just turning into back to acquaintances. I had told her about my MI and ever since then, she has started to be more distant, and has even mentioned her mother who had a mental illness that she hated and her parents' marriage ending in a bitter divorce, and to me, that was kind of a red flag.

Its just extremely unfortunate. But, its also ok, because there are a lot of values she holds that I don't, and they are definitely conflicting within a friendship and would cause more harm, as they are fundamental beliefs about the world.

I don't believe what she does, but I respect it and consider them whenever she wants to talk, but she does not respect what I do and immediately dismisses it.

I also have found out I dont have respect for people who wear beliefs like coat.

ANYWAY, thank you. I have found that I need people to say things for it to sink in.