I empathy with you too. I have been working in different offices years ago. From nine to seven... It doesn't matter because I was happy. I loved my job, my coworkers... I lost my last job years ago and I have been trying to find a new one because I have had some money issues.
Suddenly I started to work in an small office two months ago. Well, it's a job from hell. My anxiety is growing up day by day. I feel depressed, have fear, shivering, can't sleep, I'm tired... My self-esteem is down down down down...
What I mean is that work can ruin your life. At this moment I can't afford my own life. Hate job, hate boss and coworkers that make me feel uncomfortable, a no valid person. I miss my life. I miss the person I was.
Now I'm a shadow of myself.
I can't leave it due to money issues and because now a days in Spain is easier to win the lottery that to find a job.
I would like to send all of them to the hell but I can't.
So I have to wake up every morning praying for survive just another day.
I had had finished my treatment, my t, my meds... And now I am lost again.