Muse, I know what you mean about being balanced on my meds, but still feeling like crap. I have been on antidepressants for 12 years. During that time, I had some decent jobs, got a master's degree. But it all went downhill. I was just homeless last year. I fell really far, all on being "balanced" on my antidepressants and antipsychotic. I took stock of my 12 years that is past week (long story) and those darned pills did not buffer me whatsoever. I am (was) also on 60mgs of the Prozac and 80mgs of the Geodon. Good luck! It helps to have a good, caring, and supportive therapist who can offer some insight.