I didn't think this belonged in the spiritual board because I want to talk about religion.

I'm Pagan although I haven't practice in years. So basically my life has been non-religious. Anyways since my last breakdown 2 weeks ago, I've been feeling drawn more and more to a Christian type religion of some kind and I don't know why. How do you tell if a sign or feeling is a real message from a diety or something vs a sign of mental illness?

I'm Bipolar 2 so I'm not supposed to get psychotic/delusions/hallucinations although I have had trouble with paranoia and intrusive thoughts and compulsive thoughts/actions.

I've seen religious signs everywhere, been drawn to notice religious words on church signs I've never dwelled on before, been drawn to watching religious shows, read religious websites and I feel the need to go to church which I've never like doing.

I suppose there is probably no way to know for sure but it makes me worried. I don't even want to be Christian but the signs just keep coming. What do you think?