I've been thinking about going for a drive at night, but I'm worried about not wanting to come back. Once while driving, I had a really strong and terrifying impulse to crash on the freeway. I had my son in the car with me. It was an awful feeling, and I barely felt like I had control. If he hadn't been in the car with me, I'm pretty sure I still would have controlled that, but not positive. Another time, I was driving home at night, and I turned off into a dark convention center parking lot. I struggled really hard with myself to go home instead of just taking off. The scariest part is, I can't even remember if my kids were with me that time.

These episodes aren't my norm - they're my extremes. I just hate feeling (like I do right now) that they can be so easily and unpredictably triggered.

Also, raspberrytorte, on the potty thing? My son wasn't trained until he was 4, and that was just daytime with accidents every other day or so. He's 5.5 now, and still has an accident every two weeks or so. He still hasn't made it through the night dry. My daughter, who is now 9, was day-trained around 3, with accidents every several days for another year or two. She didn't stop having accidents (every other week or so) until she was 7. But she was dry through the night almost from the start. It is no reflection on your parenting. Kids are ready when they're ready.