Mouse I haven't gone for grief counseling...I may have to do that because I am scaring myself with the intensity of my feelings....am back to screaming in the car as I did when our son first died.

The problem with going is the admission of my inability to cope with what life hands me. My husband is "somebody" and ....how can I say this without sounding pompus?
We are supposed to have all the answers, do the counseling for others and above all else...set an example of surviving.

I suppose I could go out of state.

Are you saying you can't fix me? *wink