I also understand the trade with mental sharpness for peace of mind.

I struggle with this A LOT. With a higher dosage of my benzos I'm a bit dumbed down and my creativity suffers. So I cut dosages when I can but then sometimes I just feel too dang bad. And I'm like Take this pill and feel OK or not take it and maybe feel OK and creative or maybe just feel like hell.

Meh, you know. LOL.