I know when in a manic phase some people tend to become really irresponsible with money but do any of you have problems with money even when your not manic. I tend to have problems with money no matter what mood I am in. It doesn't matter if I am having a low mood day or a high mood day. I know some of my problems stem from the fact that I was bullied a lot in school and now I feel like even almost 6 years later that I have to have the stuff that everyone else has to have friends. My fiance says that this is the real world and no one cares what someone has and what someone doesn't have. I think people do. I have social anxiety as well so I feel I have to look a certain way at all times. I feel like if a girl where I would work has a $200 bag I have to have a $300 bag to make her like me. I am very insecure in myself. My fiance tells me all the time I am pretty and beautiful but I feel like if I don't spend a lot of money on making myself look good that he will start having a wondering eye and cheat on me. He has never cheated on me that I am aware of but a man will cheat if their wife or girlfriend isn't keeping up with the standards they expect their girl to be. I have gotten so bad that unless I get a family member to help me today me and him will go hungry tonight. We both get paid tomorrow but by last week I was broke and I only get paid every two weeks and because of me being broke my fiance has had to buy everything so now he is broke too and he doesn't know it. I checked his accounts to see if he had enough to eat lunch which he does thanks to his credit card but we have no money for dinner tonight. I don't have the guts to tell him so I am going to try and beg my grandma to help us. She helps us a lot but it's always because of something stupid I do. How do I get over this fear of not having friends and learn to save money. I hate calling my grandma every time I run out of money. I just can't seem to fight the urge to spend money I don't have please help me