Well as long as your life is quote, "a mess" you will never be fully satisfied in a relationship because you're not fully satisfied with yourself. In order to have a lasting healthy relationship, you need to be in a good place first. So you need to attempt to get your life sorted out before you jump into another string of short relationships. Otherwise this theme will keep playing out (you might get lucky and find the love of your life, but how fun would that be if you still felt like the rest of your life was a mess?) so you need to make yourself your first priority and really get your life the way you want it. THEN you should start dating again. It might even give you time to really gain some introspective knowledge about yourself. No one else can make you happy but you. Stop searching outside of yourself towards another person to do that for you. Once you establish a better set of circumstances for yourself, then you will be open to allow someone into your heart. Then it has the chance to prosper.