As usual, it is like you are reading my mind Underground. I can relate to what you are saying. I am often saying things that others deem "inappropriate" but typically I do not realize it until someone tells me(and then I often don't take them at all seriously and just give them a hefty dose of my contempt, HAHAHA), or I will eventually realize it later as I have self-awareness now albeit it is still limited. But just because I may realize I've been acting rather "badly" doesn't mean I'll care... Hehehehe.