Thank you for replying

I do want to leave. I just feel very emotionally tired. I did try leaving when the kids were 6 or 7 and I researched on how to tell young kids and we sat them down and I did an explanation that even Dr Phil would have been proud of and when I was done, he threw his hands up in the air and said " see what your mom's going to do, she doesn't love daddy anymore!"

I feel so much different as I age. There are so many things in life I want to explore and participate in. I've lost 120 pounds and I want to be active and try new things. I don't feel scared to be by myself, I want to be by myself.