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Originally Posted by Claritytoo
Have you discussed this with your present therapist? I have memories that are kept with a few parts. These parts say I am still not ready to see them. It is frustrating but until they think I can handle them they are not going to let me see. I have had quick flashes of some stuff that happened to me when I was three. And I have a sort of narrative in my head that lets me know something happened to me when I was three, But that is it. So bottom line according to my parts (which is me) I am not ready. I still need to build a stronger inner self so I can remember, and than go forward to heal. I will be able to know once I can over come the fear of knowing. Take care.
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all of you what you said is similar to me and similar to what my therapist said about learning about what i went through.
i recently had two new things come up for me, but i am unsure how to deal with it. one was a huge random trigger that threw this far away and strange image in my head, not quite like a memory but not a dream either since i was wide awake. but i saw myself and a friend when we were about five or so. the second thing was a voice that out of nowhere told me something about a memory i have bits and pieces of. oddly, after both of these, for the few days after, i had symptoms of things i don't generally have..with the second event, i feel like i am actually at peace with it finally despite still questioning if it really happened or not. sorry to derail this topic.
but back to the point of this entire thing, i think it is true that when you are ready, things will come to you. for me, it happened when i was between 16 and now (almost 32) several years apart. first, it was feeling (knowing) something happened..then it was memories i always knew or had that just happened to come more to my awareness..and then there were just a few new ones i had never remembered that came up. but among all of that was the symptoms that fit pieces of things too for me.
my psychiatrist does hypnotherapy, but i have not tried it yet. but she did tell me that things inside need to be on the same page with no walls up because that wall is still going up at times, so if i pushed myself in therapy, everything would just be cut off completely most likely...so i don't really push things like i used to...i just do what i can daily and see where things go.