for months I have been tapering my lamotrigine down..well today I noticed that passion and feelings have started to return..I felt something... been over two years.. that I have lived in vanilla land... nothing got thru that plastic wall around my feelings..no anger no sadness no sorry no nothing....I am begining to have political opinions again,, being upset with bad drivers,, anger at the stupidity of coworkers....the real me is coming to life again..

And it scares me a little...being at peace with the world is kind of a cool way to be...having to face and deal with "feelings, emotions, passions", is scarey...

I am beginning to wonder if I would be better off hiding back in the pill bottle again....after all it is what my pdoc wants,,me dead from the neck up....

Does any one else feel this way or am I just screwy.. maybe too many pills for too long...