Adding on to this (now that I'm back home). T said one way to bring it up with p-doc would be to say that when I was younger, I sometimes resorted to SH to deal with emotions. It's been a long time since I've done that, but I'm having urges to do that again. And that maybe I could also say it's a sort of escapist fantasy (those were T's words, not mine). Does that sound OK? I'm just trying to figure out what to say that will express that I'm concerned about this and don't want to have these feelings and am a bit scared by them, while not setting off serious alarm bells.

Wish I could somehow meet with her and T at the same time, but that's of course not possible (partly because T only works M-W). MC should be in tomorrow, if p-doc is concerned, so she could theoretically check with him. Again, much of my concern is that p-doc and I don't know each other particularly well (only seeing her since Nov., and for the last few months only once a month or so), compared to 3.5 and 2 years, respectively, with T and MC.

And I had like 25 min to do this in, since it's a med check appt. (She's kept me longer before though, so I imagine she will in this case too, if needed.)