ktp, I seem to have missed you last night. I am sorry that you went through abuse by the woman who was supposed to nurture you. it is the most devastating memory in my life. i am here and I am unbelievably open to discussion, just need cues from all of you okay? I wish you peace. By the way, I had my babies and I saw them and knew I had to cherish and protect. Weird that some mothers just can't. Thank you for writing back to me.