agreed - when I was "pushed" to be open.... it didn't go well. People I liked treated me different. People I tried to stay in contact with, I've never heard from again. I think talking in general dissociative and ptsd terms is best. Very few people will ever really understand and accept DID and all that goes with it. Those who do are rare gems.

As far as meds go, yeah I love when THEY decided "we don't give benzos here" and put me into withdrawals for 30 hours of hell. After that, not only did they give them to me, they begged me to take the PRN Ativan. I told them they'd change their mind.

People talk lovely talk about "Getting in control of panic". I dunno about all people, but with alters, it's a whole different ball game. I take two "downers" that barely keep me level as well as a mood stabilizer. If I miss even a dose, I am all kinds of crazy. People often ask me how I can function on the downers (and prns to teach or during a panic attack). They don't bring me "down". They bring me as close to normal as I might get. "This isn't a forever drug".... ok - well then you get to put up with me inpatient when you take it from me. Have fun dealing with my 10 most active alters. On my meds, only 4-6 are present. Doesn't mean others don't show up at times.
That wasn't what I wanted to say... where was I going ... oh - like heart medication or blood thinners or insulin; "this isn't a forever drug" would kill the person living with that condition. Our ailments could have the same outcome without help.
just sayin'