i have been depressed for so long that it is my personality. I have felt like i had social anxiety, bdd, and ocd. I dont have any real relayionships. My biggest problem is i have a hard time connecting with people. It takes me a while to get to know people. I frel lole ive never been loved or eben liked. Im not close to my family, ive lost touch with my frsternity. One of my roommates told me I made him sad and he could not live with me anymore. I do a good job of hiding all of this. But you can feel the repression in my voice. I just am losing sight and i feel like there is no hope but im not suicidal about it. I just want to be outgoing and everything everyone else.