Kind of scared here. I went to my first *real* therapy session last week. I've had a lot of abuse (all the types of abuse), and I don't want to bring up those memories. But, this therapist is awesome, but she asked so many questions. I felt so wound up and flooded with memories when I left.

So, is this what I have to go through to get better? Do I have to relive memories of abuse? I'm still married to one of my abusers, who isn't abusive anymore. I'm afraid of what might happen to my marriage if I relive those things. And, I'm afraid I'll get horribly depressed.

I go to my second therapy session this tuesday, and I'm getting very anxious. I have OCD, Bipolar II, used to have ptsd, and am just a big ball of anxiety most days. I just don't see the use of therapy if it makes me feel worse. Do I have to feel worse to get better? I want to get better though, definately. I don't know, just thought I'd pop my thoughts up here and see if anyone has any insight on therapy. TIA. Tokidoki