i understand you too. i am a mother and housewife and rarely go out to have fun, those days are over as i would usually end up drinking to have a good time but i dont want to deal with hangovers. its been years since ive got drunk to have a good time and i lost alot of friends because my friends all drank i i guess i just ruin the party by not drinking. being lonely can get people depressed, maybe you can see a doc and therapist, or get a job to make friends with. do you attend school? it takes awhile to get familiar with people, but after they see or talk to them they slowly become our friends or even just an acquaintance could become a friend. good luck