I am so, so sorry for your loss. I lost my sister to suicide on August 6, 2014. I have a lot of the same feelings you do. We had a tumultuous relationship and went months sometimes mad at each other without speaking. Luckily, the last conversation I told her I loved her. That was about 2 weeks before she died. However, I have regrets and guilt.

I think what we both are feeling is a part of the grieving process. Like the other people posted, I feel that I could not have changed the outcome. She was deeply depressed and very determined to kill herself.

I don't have any great advice-as I am feeling the same way you are- except to be kind to yourself. You could not have predicted the future. And know that other people here care and feel compassion for you. My heart is still breaking from my own sister's death and my heart goes out to you also.

Mom2trips+1