My wife's past bothers me. I met her when she was 20 and we have been married 7 years now and have 4 children. She has told me about past relationships and past childhood problems. She's told me how many guys she's been sexual with and even though I've been with more women it still bothers me. Why? Lately she has made comments like "if I was into black guys I would go for a guy like him" and "that's why I've liked mexican guys". Also I told her I wasn't self conscious about the guys from other states that I don't know, she responded with "well if you knew them then you probably would be". I don't know why these things have bothered me so much. I've suspected her of cheating but everything I look into I find out she isn't. I guess I just don't understand why she loves ME and I feel like I'm not good enough for her even though she shows me she loves me and treats me very well. I just don't feel like I deserve her.