I've been googling it to find out. I came across an interesting analogy. One lady described emotions as a child trying to get his mom's attention. At first, he'll call her name, then he pulls her sleeve, insistent now and if she still ignores him, he throws a tantrum. Mine's been throwing a tantrum for a while. Now that I'm ready to listen, I don't know where to begin. I'll keep reading though. I have to get this sorted.

I hope you find the help you need, too, Hannabee. Suppressing emotions and having them pop up when you least expect itt is the worst!