Thanks to all that replyed, I can identify with every story! I am learning at my age of 37 wow, finally how to heal. Dont know if the emotional pain ever stops, but I have to believe that things will get better. This all started 2 years ago, flashbacks, nightmares etc. Remembering every thing that happened. For many years I was able to be in denial/ that doesnt work anymore, I have suffered greatly knowing my mom didnt protect or comfort me. To this day she is all about her own life. Thanks again for responding~~ Chris