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Originally Posted by Babysteps4me
Do a lot of you get like I do? I call it "hideout mode." I sit in a small room all alone - all day. I drink soda or iced tea - smoke cigarettes - don't eat - and do nothing I am supposed to do that day. All day. I miss plans, work stuff, right now I am supposed to be packing to move! I am afraid to leave the house, take a shower, go downstairs in my apt building to get packages or mail. And I can be this way (adding in tons of sleeping) for SEVERAL DAYS STRAIGHT.
I am trying to force myself to move, get up and outside.
Anybody else ever go through anything similar? Please if you do or have - I feel like I am all alone. So small. So not in control of me. Thanks.
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I do this too, and I finally figured out it was because I was stuck in that mode where I woke up and overwhelmed at the thought of going out and addressing all the different injured ponies and horses.
You are "avoiding" but it's not really on "purpose" like most would think it is.
My guess is while you might want to move and be somewhere you feel safe, the move itself is so stressfull that you keep avoiding it, but as I mentioned, it's not the kind of conscious choice people who don't experience PTSD might think.
Oh, you are not alone my dear, it's a part of PTSD and it does get confusing and "yes", one does feel so "not in control of self".
It's a challenge to push one's self out of this too, that is why your name "Babysteps" is so perfect, it's right where you are right now. It's "ok" to do the babysteps, small steps are better than no steps at all.
