well hello yall

new here, first of all please i m not too good in writing or expressing myself so if you find any mistakes dont get offended. This post will be sort of long too please bare with me

To the main issue on ground, i have been feeling down for a really long while over this sexual orientation issue. i m 20 years of age about to finish my degree in the university. i have never had any form of relationship or sex. so you could just imgaine how naive i m in this ascepts. i came from a very stict religious home and my folks hold all this sex and relationship thing serious.
Because of this religious upbringing i just never bothered to know more about my sexuality, i just assumed that i will eventually just find a guy i like and you know then i would explore with him when married of course.
After some years for the first time in my life last year, out of boredom and this great urge i decided to browse through some nude pics, most of the picture i saw where mostly women and sincerly i just adored the body,curves, the boobs and gosh i just couldnt stop starring. The thing is before then i have actually felt an attraction towards women than men, though i have had a lot of male crushes but you know i never took it seriously because of my belief against homos and all that. i thought it was normal to like the female sex that way like i said i was very naive. The attraction has been there a long time since i can remember, sometimes unconsiously find myself starring at a fellow woman back side or boobs.
The main issue now is that since i enter university, my world has changed completly i m not longer has religious as before and i have began to free myself from some silly beliefs and i try to be open to people has possible, i m trying to know more about myself and try to be happy....This sexual orientation stuff just began to hit me last year after that lil porn i watched, i still feel terrible about it. Though i dont know how to describe how the urge i felt to just have sex i dont remember what triggered that feeling. i have never really thought of having sex with anyone before though i have had though of romantic relationship but with guys mostly not females. The thing is am not really attracted to a guy body but is character mostly recently i discovered that i just love looking at ladies naked. i feel like a big pervert now, i dont know what to do to fight this lust.
To make it worse some days back i imgained a girl friend and I, on top ourselves both naked caressing each other and smooching. (not sex i find it difficult imagining having sex with someone) i tried so much to stop this thought the more i tried the worse i felt, a part of me loved this feeling another part of me hated this. like i was trying to escape from myself, i just decided to let it slide and after my fantansy i felt even more terrible. till now i cant get the thought out of my head and when i see her now i just imgaine her naked and her just by my side. i m so terrified i cant speak to her normally, been trying as hard to avoid her by all means and avoiding phsyical contact with her.

to cut the long story short, i m not sure if i m lesbian or if i m bisexual as i have had crushes on guys and had some fantasies with them....i m just confused and its killing me seriously i have been trying to work myself off the thought but it keeps getting worse. i try as much to avoid looking at ladies and not to get too attached to any guy so i dont develop a crush or vice versa....but it is not working. please i need help am so confused what am i? what can i do to stop the guilt i feel? i m so afraid and scared because where i live there is high rate of homophobia and there is even an anti-gay law on ground for been gay or lesbian... if am one i dont wanna end in jail, but i just want to be a happy person. please help me!!